Financial:
Improving my financial situation has a direct relationship with my effort at work. After a lengthy period of unemployment, I eventually fell behind. While I have been catching up the last few months that doesn't mean that I am content with the debt I have accrued. In my job there are monetary incentives for achieving my quota. Therefore, as I focus wholeheartedly on the objectives outlined in my job description, I will achieve a greater sense of personal fulfillment. The natural by-product is a larger commission check. Maintaining a consistently high level of execution could lend itself to exceeding quota for the bonus commission rate. I love my career and hold everyone I work with in the highest esteem. Everything is aligned for success in this area of my life.
Emotional:
I need to remind myself daily that I am in control of my thoughts as they will directly affect the nature and purpose behind my activities. When I choose to dwell on the negative, it reflects in my personal nature...After the ugly eye surgery and then not having a job, I was overwhelmingly negative. I thought I hid it fairly well from my friends and family but as my situation got better so did my attitude and everyone noticed the difference in me. I know people that have been through far worse and they are positive thinkers to the core. I am striving to be more like that. Which leads me to this next thought: I want to have a better understanding of what my purpose is in life. Surely it has to be greater than what I can see from this vantage point coming from a perpetual state of anxiety. I just need to wake up every day with the intention and hope that nearly all of the actions I take should promote a sense of well-being and accomplishment. Part of that is taking time to communicate with God and listen.
Relationships:
I want to treat all of my relationships with a deeper respect and have a greater sense of urgency for expressing my gratitude and love for the people in my life who mean so much. If I feel like calling someone I haven't spoken to in a while, I won't to put it off like a fleeting thought or feel guilty because it has been so long. Likewise, if someone calls me that I haven't talked to in years, I am going to pick up the phone. It is the honorable thing to do and I will listen.
I will offer to help willingly before being asked if it is within my power to do so.
I want to take the time to form stronger bonds all year long with my family rather than waiting for holidays.
Body and Soul: A little about the past and goals for the future
I haven't been so good to myself. I thought not having the funds for pedicures, expensive haircuts, and botox made me less attractive when infact, other than longer hair, not much has changed. Now that I can afford a few things here and there, they don't own me. Beyond all of the superficial add-ons and expensive make-up, I learned that I want to treat my body with all of the respect it deserves. This form I am in has been abused, misused, and negatively viewed for as long as I can remember. Fantastic toenails and a gorgeous coif are nice but they don't define me anymore.
I just thought of an analogy: We invest in a car to get us from place to place. We pay for insurance, wash it, sometimes even adore it as the vehicle that defines our status. All the while the check engine light could be on.
I treated my physical appearance similarly and having less helped me come to realize the truth about where I was running low: Self-esteem. I blamed it on not having all of the tools but I was reaching for the wrong toolbox.
Conclusion:
I want to enjoy the new vision I have for 2010: To be stronger and more viable than ever rather than pine away for regrets, lost causes and even my old best friend, Youth. I want to mature gracefully by taking better care of every aspect of my life and do so productively and joyfully so I can share my wisdom with the next generation of my family. That is my mission.
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